i need...

to figure out why i am so hesitant to follow the path i have laid out for myself.

the only problem is i already know the answer and it isn't making my search for a new path any easier.

as it is, there are too many things that i don't want to say for fear of what they mean.

ugh, well, off to work, at least there i can try to sort through this with none of the affected people around.

Coming of Age

I got to thinking today, while i was texting taylor, and i think it is funny how they tell all high school students that this is the beginning of their lives. I mean average life expectancy is about 80 years old. That means that by the time a high school student graduates at the age of 18 about 1/4 of their life is over.

Does it really take a quarter of a persons life for them to get started? Sure, there are some things you are beginning, like getting a job, finding the "one", moving out of your parents house, but aren't most of a persons belief system set by this point. I don't just mean in a religious sence, but values, morals, some sence of what a person wants, or at least doesn't want, to do with their life should already be acheived.

Who was the person who decieded that all of this should count for nothing more than the building blocks of life?

Honestly, i feel that if we allow children to believe that they don't have to start their lives until after high school we are breeding future generations that will have no reason not to put that time off for an even later date, such as graduating college, or having children. Look at what we have come from, in earlier times, by the age of 18 you would already be married, have a profession, and kids hopefullyon the way. Understandably life expectancy can be used against me on this matter since it was also lower during those days, but i still feel that our generation has let the need for children to "grow up" slip by.

work ^_^

so today this lady came up to me at work, and she was like"i don't know why they keep saying you guys have great customer service, there is no customer service here."

first of all, if you are talking to someone who works there, you have customer service, maybe not good service, but service none-the-less.

then she was like, "there is stuff all over the floor, and there aren't any mirrors, and no one is around to help."

so i asked her if i could help her with anything, thinking that was what was wrong....

no, she says, "i don't need your help with anything, i just think it is ridiculous that your store keeps saying it has good customer service!"

please don't yell at me, i can't change anything.

and i tried telling her that i was sorry that she was having a bad experience, but that it was just because we didn't have as many people as we would like due to the economy.

then she goes on about how mad she was and that there aren't enough people working......




seriously, i just admitted we don't have enough people working, i tried to do my best, but i guess that wasn't good enough for this lady. well, i can't do everything.

people are funny when they go shopping.

In case you were wondering.

In 1840, poet Henry Wadsworth Longfellow became the first American to have plumbing installed in his house.

life update...

so school is finally over. Yay! no more chemistry until next semester.
I plan to spend my whole summer doing five things. Working, hanging out with friends, reading, filling out scholarships for school money, and reading. All equally important things to do, which is why reading is on there twice, since it is twice as important.

I just got home from Foothill's Pops Concert. It was super fun because i got to hang out with a bunch of my favorite people that i don't get to see otherwise, mainly taylor and james, no offence to everyone else, i love you all too.

Before the concert i was over at King and Taka's house and i got to help taka make rice bags. That was fun, and since they didn't all get eaten i brought some home and now i am eating one, yummy. Good babies in their coffins. lolo

so even though i wish i was at fanime, it was a good day.

anyways, all should be proud of me, i actually put down my 4th book in the "dances with wolves" series to write this, but now i really want to know what happens, so i will return to it.

night night everyone

I'm back.....kinda

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions...
Pick an artist: Green Day
1.) Are you a male or female?She's a Rebel
2.) Describe yourself:Extraordinary Girl
3.) How do you feel about yourself?The grouch
4.) Describe where you currently live.Welcome to Paradise
5.) If you could go anywhere, where would you go?Church on Sunday
6.) Your best friends are:Poprocks and Coke
7.) Your favorite colour is:Rotting
8.) You know that:Nice Guys Finish Last
9.) What's the weather like?Jaded
10.) If your life was a television show, what would it be called?I Want to be on TV
11.) What is life to you?Don't Want to Fall in Love
12.) What is the best advice you have to give?Good Riddance
13.) If you could change your name, what would you change it to?King for a Day

It has been so long since i posted, oh well, everyone who reads this also sees me all the time which is probably why i don't write on here more.